A long hiatus it has been, keeping rather low for nearly five months. So much has indeed happened and we're less than two weeks to the start of university life. That's basically growth, life progression we often refer to as and very much so another chapter encompassing a multitude of milestones that is yet to be uncovered. Having taken a good break from writing and expressing, it honestly hasn't really been a total discontinuity of it all with plenty of developments made throughout the blog. It’s been all work behind the scenes on here and we’re onto a brand new chapter ahead, something to look forward to. Often embracing change for better or worse, I thought perhaps this would be the best opportunity to express a beloved piece of jigsaw found in the entire puzzle. Something that hasn’t been well spoken about and articulated across as it should have been rightly so because of how deserving this memory is. Within span of a few months now, so much has been well put in place through with the right words to say, whilst the grieving period gone by. It wasn’t easy taking all in because I realize how this whole experience actually changed my perspective in so many angles. This is a topic perhaps many animal lovers would have prolly enjoyed reading because of how much influence a pet can have to owners. To simply begin with, I was never quite fond of animals because of how distant I am with their presence since young. It has been very much so a love-hate relationship, seeing how adorable they can get but yet be threatened by how ferocious they may turn out to be. Rather difficult to comprehend how they can impact many despite them being what they are. A cat we all dearly miss for those who know him both directly and indirectly.
I introduced Project X as an unknown for the masses to fill minds and thoughts with, be it by his name or whichever suits best through the representation of his presence when he was still around. Something to better relate with the term X, we commonly know that it has always been an unknown to solve or find in the context of mathematics, and could basically demarcate a particular area of interest on a map in a much larger scale. Either way, it brings about plenty to ponder. Bani was more than just a cat to his family, he had outgrown to be a companion and very much a best friend to the family that counts his blessings and existence daily. Very well loved and cared for from the day he was regarded as part of the family to the day everyone caught the glimpse of his last breath. A moment that will forever be etched in our hearts and minds because of how much he has had to suffer yet not wanting to burden anyone through sickness and even so in the pink of health. It is entirely different supposedly when a cat sticks through with the family, thick and thin for nearly 15 years. Often forgetting that apart from us all growing older, they too are likewise. I have never lived with Bani in the same household as where he grew up in, but I’ve seen his downfalls and glorious days in the past two fruitful years having been introduced of his existence by his family. I have known him to be a rather fiercely looking but yet well pampered and adorable cat in all ways I can possibly think of.
Everything escalated rather quickly from when the day he lost his major source of appetite for food and the telltale signs he displayed on how he expresses his feelings and behavior to his owner on the possibility of him leaving soon. For someone like myself who tries his best to cherish every small little deed and actions of the ones and things around me, I constantly emphasize on the philosophy that in order for us to know whether we were well loved and cared for during our carefree days of living, take full observance of the ones who stay by your side till your very last breath. Bani waited for everyone, as long as he could to see and hear his beloved family’s faces and voices. He kept fighting to stay responsive as he could although every part of his soul began depreciating. It was really hard to take in because we felt the pain and suffering despite not being in direct affiliation of the actual pain he duly endured.
We buried him in a proper resting spot, among the land of the ones who had lived their life sufficiently to be well loved by the many deserving a proper state of burial. The people who watches over the graves slotted Bani’s resting spot beside a tree, well positioned and demarcated with an area surrounded with a few bricks and a small roll of grass patch. Project X was something I had longed to do for a cat that deserves nothing but the best. Wasn't something that has been done before previously, this was an experience uncalled for but well looked planned in advance upon execution. For a cat, Bani was very different, he gave more than just his life and presence within the family, too much memories but yet very little to rant about and hence deserved much better even in the after life. Perhaps this was something that would better ease everyone. Prior to the day he left us, he dropped by through our dreams and his soul lived through the people we meet, and especially so seen in the cat that filled the hole of emptiness in the family right after, Bana. A constant reminder that we're never gone forever with all the memories that we leave behind.
They say to always count your blessings, and never forget the great ones. This was a life changer, the whole experience because of how it all happened and the aftermath of his departure actually affected so many people. Simply no words can truly explain that feeling and hence, I thought a better way to express it was through a self initiated project to enhance Bani's resting place. Although it wasn't perfect, he deserved every bit of it and will definitely look forward to enhance the outlook of his grave in the coming months when the opportunity of time arises. Hopefully the amount of sweat and effort put in place from planning to execution of Bani's enhance resting place layout was all worth.
My heart goes out to those who have lost a pet especially a cat whom they’ve loved wholeheartedly and deserve nothing short but a spot by the rainbow bridge with their beloved when the right time comes. And to my partner, I hope you like the new look for your beloved pet.
We will all continue to miss and love Bani dearly.